F e b

I don't know why should i feel this again, but this time it feels a lil bit different. I don't know what made me keep replying back, keep missing someone i thought was just a friend.
And i don't understand about that goosebumps i feel everytime my phone rings and his name appears, everytime he says that he miss me, everytime we're going meet, everytime I'm staring at him.
When i finally know how it feels like when time passes so fast while you're with your love one. And how it feels like to realise that half year will be a very longggg time to be waited just to see the sweetest curve on his face again.
Sometimes i feel so wrong to ever have this kind of feeling, but after all, what keeps me going anw?
It's just something about him that actually means everything about him, that i've always felt from him from the very start, and i don't know why he always appears in my mind, and i just want to tell you that it actually makes non-sense in everything between us.

Yet honestly, i still want to try and figure out, is it gonna work out with him?

It's just another part of life that i'm not dare to imagine how it'll turn to, if someday it won't be the same like today, anymore. But today, i wish i can always feel this way....

Pray for us,kay? ♥

F e b

I don't know why should i feel this again, but this time it feels a lil bit different. I don't know what made me keep replying back, keep missing someone i thought was just a friend.
And i don't understand about that goosebumps i feel everytime my phone rings and his name appears, everytime he says that he miss me, everytime we're going meet, everytime I'm staring at him.
When i finally know how it feels like when time passes so fast while you're with your love one. And how it feels like to realise that half year will be a very longggg time to be waited just to see the sweetest curve on his face again.
Sometimes i feel so wrong to ever have this kind of feeling, but after all, what keeps me going anw?
It's just something about him that actually means everything about him, that i've always felt from him from the very start, and i don't know why he always appears in my mind, and i just want to tell you that it actually makes non-sense in everything between us.

Yet honestly, i still want to try and figure out, is it gonna work out with him?

It's just another part of life that i'm not dare to imagine how it'll turn to, if someday it won't be the same like today, anymore. But today, i wish i can always feel this way....

Pray for us,kay? ♥

T i m e

You've no idea how fast time passed by. When you meet someone but they can't be by your side, not like how you used to wish it to be. When you dreamt about having a fairytale story but ended up facing a reality. When you see his face but knowing that the clock keep ticking, keep reminding you that the time is almost done. When you realise that MAYBE you've met the right one, at the wrong time. And you wish that Mr. Time would freeze for awhile, so the time could be right for once, or one more time.

But through all of the above things that i mentioned before, i don't know why i keep going, somehow. Hoping that tomorrow will always stay like how i wish it to be.

Sometimes you promise someone forever, but it doesn't work out that way.

I'm facing a big deal of dilemma currently.

It feels like i will take back all of my words. I know that i really hate to face the broken-heart condition, nobody enjoys it anyway. I always want that one boy who will come and give me a reason to stay...in love, yet i always doubt to just give myself a little space of happiness and admit that maybe the one i've been waiting for has finally came. I don't wanna give up, it's not my style anyway..hahahah....but all of the bad thoughts has bothered me even when i haven't tried. I can't promise someone forever, i have no courage to do that though, and i can't even promise someone a year, or even half year? Not like i don't want to, but you know, feeling change within time, i don't want to promise something i can't even guarantee.
So, if i say that i'll try, but then it doesn't work out that way...please note that i just don't wanna hurt someone..
Future is just another pages of life that we can't ever predict.
even tomorrow, a month, three months, six months, a year, another years...

Who am i to say that things will always work out like how we want it to be?

12th December.

Please tell me...
that i am not in love, i can't be in love, i shouldn't be in love with you..

Decembers

I had a dream yesterday, i know that it's quite a confusing dream. Even how confusing it is, i still recognized one of the people in there, okay, i'll admit that he is the only one that i know in my dream, anyway.
I know that actually i shouldn't dream about him again, i can't tell you why, but things will get better that way.
Hahaha
It's not like i hate him that much, but, yeah, sometimes it's better to be like this.
I won't avoid someone that ever made my life, my whole world, changed somehow. #eh
That little things about him, had changed my perception about life, yet, i don't understand why, it's just state that we're not supposed to be together from the very start.
Errr
Then, i've to make it clear then, i just don't love him......no more? Haha *doubting mind*